真心换来的是什么....?

seems like i am a failure afterall. i still cant help but feel down without any apparant reason but i can somehow know its linked to u? why every single time i still continue to carry hopes? why do i keep making myself feel disappointed every single time? i really dont know why am i like this. am i still not over? honestly, i dont know it myself. 

if we were still together, our one year would have passed. 

idk why i just feel abit weird and sian. like... we couldve talked more haha. afterall i've ec-ed him for quite long and this is the first time we get to interact this much HAHAH. well i guess, we have no fate!

havent cried so much in a while, and i cant believe it's still over the same person

why do i feel so fucking sad and shitty.......... sigh omg why am i like that....