Hah, come on. This is my blog. I blog what I feel. Why not reflect on the way you act? Why will people feel this way towards you? If you don't like people to say you then don't do things that'll make people dislike! Why so indirect on twitter? So attention seeking for what? You wanna rebut, you can comment here, my blog is always open. Furthermore, no were names mentioned but if the shoe fits, why not? :)

Wtf lol dont show me BRF to me when I did nothing to you. I don't care if TW is going to show this to you or what. You should do some self reflections sometimes that the world doesn't revolve around you, practice what you preach. Dont expect everyone to be in your way -____- you think you really boss ah? Zzzzz fking annoying. 

feels good to be talking to someone i havent talked to for a period of time. 

yeah, definitely. 

fuck. 

i kept telling people, no, i wasnt affected. it's okay no one bothered to celebrate my birthday with me. inside me was the total opposite. but it was kind of expected. what kind of friends i have. how much i mean to people, so, i wasnt damn affected. but i was affected.


it was a zzz day coz it didnt feel like a birthday to me. until i woke up suddenly at 3am to zh's birthday message. then i felt, it was okay to not have any celebrations, if you wished me, i dont care if nobody wishes me.

thanks for making me feel that all the efforts i've put in these years, are worth it. 

feeling like a loser sometimes. like why am i always trying so hard. because i like you! the fact is youll never notice me, or consider me. even after these years. i wished i didnt have to put down my ego fully. i wish i could be more 潇洒. but the fact is i cant. if i dont try, or i walk away, i know youll never chase after me. and now youre like so popular among girls. a bit of sweet talk to girls you can make them fall for you. and me, chasing after you fr 3 years and every year what i got is bullshit. i'm just envious when i see you interacting with girls...why cant i be one of them? why cant we just be friends? 

sometimes, i really hate how you treat me. but i understand totally your intention is not to give me false hopes, i just dont like feeling this way....

but most of the times, i miss you. alot. 

& why am i still hoping for a bday wish from you? i rmbed how i kept hoping last year and got nothing. 

it's sad to see how much people has changed for the worst, esp when the person was once close to you. 

dont understand why suddenly jj is hostile to me again. when he was good to me and all, i knew it was temporary. i knew. good thing is i did not make myself too attached to him. 

why so competitive?

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tw promised to get an A2 for amath for prelim 2. seems that he's getting his goals up again. it's great to see really. i hope you will try to be more 看开 on being alone. think of it in a good way you have more time to study for Os. 

jiayou tingwei. the thing i like about you is that you have 'backbone' - 骨气. i know you can and will do it. A2 isnt hard for you

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really really miss zh but theres nth i can do. dont know why after he graduated my grades just dropped and dropped. perhaps it's just my laziness. 

or not?

fuck you leonard. for being so condescending. i treated you so good and this is the kind of bullshit i got from you.