" I'm sorry sometimes

I get a little jealous, thinking that someone else

could make you happier than I could.

I guess it's my insecurities acting up.

Because I know that I'm not the prettiest,

smartest or most fun and exciting girl.

But I do know that no matter how

hard and long you look,

YOU'LL NEVER FIND SOMEBODY THAT

LOVES YOU LIKE I DO. "

I'm too naive to think that you all are my best friends, you all understands me the best, you all will always be there for me till the very end. and you all are the ones whom i trusted the most. but now, i dont think so.. how dumb can i be..

Fuck-ed up life. Why is everything my fault? I just don't understand. I think this world is so unfair. if you're not popular thn you're in fault you're in the wrong. I'll never be the right one.. You can stead with jiajun and i can't like zhenhao.. what law.. :( Loving a person isn't wrong. Loving a person is easy. What is difficult is letting go. Sorry but i'm not letting you out of my mind.. :) Cindy told me.. If you really love that person you won't want to forget him.. Which is really true.. I really dw to forget you.. Idk what reason but just.. I can't bear to.. No matter how much i'll argue with jieyu.. i won't give up.. unless i like another guy. I won't give up on you just because of that 10 dollars.. never..

Sorry.. Sorry for liking you.. I know loving a person isn't wrong but just sorry.. :( Loving someone is easy. The most difficult part is letting go.. People keep calling me to let go.. isn't worth.. But did you all know? I had been trying this every single day.. And i reliease i can't.. Letting go is not a one day matter.. Is a thing that you must repeat every single day.. And we're in the same class.. When i saw you.. I will miss you again one you know?.. You dw me to look at you.. Alright.. I won't anymore.. Maybe sometimes i will just look at you when you don't know.. Remember you must be happy whenever where you are.. Maybe one day.. i will see you smiling and holding hands with the girl you love.. I know i'll be jealous but.. when you're happy.. i'm happy too.. I still cannot forget that silly smile on your face.. :) It always light up my day.. You dont want me to like you.. okay.. I will grant you.. I won't like you.. In the ouside.. but in the inside.. i will still love you like i always do.. I won't give up, i won't let go, i won't forget you.. Unless i like another guy.. I will love you.. i don't care you like me or not.. i will make you feel like i had given up on you.. I really dk how amelia let angus go.. Maybe she didn't really liked him..? Or maybe.. She act like she don't really like him.. And inside she still like him deeply.. Haiz.. Idk what to do now.. Maybe i should make you  hate me and scold me... And i will feel angry and hate you.. But i know.. I say i hate you outside, inside i will still love you more more.. And my angryness will slowly become to sadness..

Truth is OUT. Leonard told me that zhenhao avoid me cause he thinks i'm SCARY.. Sorry, sorry for that.. :(

PLEASE DON'T AVOID ME. :((((((( Please.. I can't always put a fake smile like you do. Idk if you like me or not but i'll still love you.. i will lose weight, i will become prettier.. maybe till that time you'll confess.. haha, maybe you don't even like me... lol.. i tried to get close to you, you walked away. i msn you, you offfline. Wdf is this sia.. I hope leo and royce were speaking the truth that he like me but he avoid me cause he dw like me.. :( Sad.. Maybe this will come to the end? But i thinkno, i won't give up, i won't give up on you! :(:(  I can smile outside :) but inside is totally opposite.. ): yeah..

Heard from royce saying that you like me.. He say you said you like me.. But is this a trick?.. Royce this type of people, can't be really trusted.. Leonard also another one.. lol.. How i wish it's real.. But if it's real i also dk should accept you or not lol.. I think i'm not good enough for you...... :(

and yeah.. Today sucks.. Especially D&T.. Going into the room saw you and elaine playing.. Although you didn't care her but i still see a smile on your face.. And when we're doing practical work, you , sabrina and malini talked till veryvery happy.. All these made me damndamndamn jealous.....

You can see i'm happy cheerful outside but deep inside you knew NOTHING. Loving a person is so torturing, whywhywhy. Grats on having high marks in maths. (: If next year you're going to express....... I can't see you anymore. :( But who knows, maybe that time i alr don't like you le.. But for now, i still love you, deep inside my heart.. and yeah.. Today sucks.. Especially D&T.. Going into the room saw you and elaine playing.. Although you didn't care her but i still see a smile on your face.. And when we're doing practical work, you , sabrina and malini talked till veryvery happy.. All these made me damndamndamn jealous.....

I was happy when tcher called my name and you laughed. Haha, why? :D But why i sms you, you always don't reply?.. I asked you if can chat or not.. maybe you don't even fucking care? Can you at least reply a no?... :( Why loving one person is so xin ku one.. I want to give up! But can anyone teach me how? :( :( :( I just can't stop looking at you. You're always so cute when you laugh or smile. :) Seeing you smile made my day too. :) I'm jealous when you talk to girls.. every girl.. Even sisters.. :( Am i too sensative? When you're talking to other girls, there'll always be a smile on your face.. Which make me veryvery jealous.. because of my fucking attitude can make you talk to me till you angry.. And you see me, always give me that face.. Diao me that face. :( :( :( What had i done wrong exactly?! :(

Well you're not online.. But even you online, we also nvr talk. But why am i so happy when you're online?..

I tried to move on. I really did. I tried to tell myself that you don’t want me and I can’t have you anymore. I tried so hard, but how can you let go of the only person who makes you happy? The only person who makes you feel alive? The only reason you’re still here? You just can’t let go of someone like that.

EXPECTED. HIS STATUS WAS ONLINE NOW. Disappoint.. OH you're busy again, maybe what i thought was wrong. Maybe you're in dota, only come back see something then go in again.. Okay.. he's online again.. lol..

Fuck, fuck it hard hard. I talk to you, you got reply. Yeah i'm happy. But after awhile i talk to you, you didn't reply. And i go do something around 2min i came back your status is busy. =.= Really damn disappointed can?!!? :( I thought i could have a good chat tonight. Never thought that it just failed like this.. Well i'll appear offline now and see after a couple of minutes your status will be online or not.. Maybe you really hate me, but i guess i won't give up cause i know.. I can't..

Well you're finally online.. Why am i so happy? But should i talk to you?.. Maybe i should be irritating or just... leave him alone? idkidk.. He don't even want reply my message already, maybe her really hate me alotalot.. Should i talk to him...?

Gohzhenhao! I want to tell you! No matter how much you avoid me, ignore me, i still won't give up! You better be careful! Stop avoiding me! :(!!!!! Am very very sad liao still want avoid! :(:( Stop avoiding me please! You're not replying my messages too! I'm damndamndamn saddd! If you want avoid me, fine! I will prove to you that i can do it better then you! But always remember, no one else will love you like i do. From cny till now, you have been avoiding me. Issit because that you heard leonard saying i like you?!!?! Ohmy. ): I regret telling him can?! He's such a baotoh kia. :@ 10th feb till now, you're still avoiding me. Well at least, at school we talked, veryvery less.. I'll count how many days you will avoid me.. 9th day.