i could have stayed over for the chalet. i chose not to. why? because of leonard's attitude towards me. he totally changed after he got shanice. okay, only his attitude towards me changed. he still treats others the same. i was talking on the phone while they were playing poke cards BY THE BACK DOOR. he shouted acrossed 'can you go outside and close the door when you're talking on the phone?' and everybody laugh. fuck. that moment, i decided not to beg for staying over. why is leonard doing these to me? i used to trust him so much. now i really dislike him. i hate how he changed into. i hate the present him.

i think tingwei's attitude towards me is okay, but i just feel a bondary between us. but he treats me better than the others. perhaps he dont hate me as much as jiajun do.

i have nothing more to say about jiajun. he just treats me like a stranger (actually, worse than that) i still remeber i was taking phone with jieyu and yiqi, alex asked jj to join in he immediately rejected. i knew it was because i will be inside. although in the end he still took with us. but i know, i know he didnt want to take photo with me. this isnt tthe first time.

i really really dont know, what happened to us.