feeling like a loser sometimes. like why am i always trying so hard. because i like you! the fact is youll never notice me, or consider me. even after these years. i wished i didnt have to put down my ego fully. i wish i could be more 潇洒. but the fact is i cant. if i dont try, or i walk away, i know youll never chase after me. and now youre like so popular among girls. a bit of sweet talk to girls you can make them fall for you. and me, chasing after you fr 3 years and every year what i got is bullshit. i'm just envious when i see you interacting with girls...why cant i be one of them? why cant we just be friends? 

sometimes, i really hate how you treat me. but i understand totally your intention is not to give me false hopes, i just dont like feeling this way....

but most of the times, i miss you. alot. 

& why am i still hoping for a bday wish from you? i rmbed how i kept hoping last year and got nothing.