sf talked to me on skype ytd. but awhile only, he didn't reply. dk why i felt so good when he talked to me. i suddenly forget all the hate i had on him.

now think bout it, i don't know if i should be happy when he said he didn't like me from the start. because if he didn't like me, i will be happy because i know i wont regret not grabbing him. but i will be unhappy because he fooled me into liking him.
but if he liked me, i will hate myself because i took him for granted and did not grab him when i had the chance.

i think it's better he didn't like me from the start. hate is easier to let go than regrets.


but still, he had good intentions, how can i hate him... as much as i hate him, i like him too.

tmr is posting results. i really really hope i'll get into pioneer jc. because it's near they stay, they'll always meet at sha's house (which is just beside pjc). i want to stay connected to them. i want to be like ehh meeting ah? can la! after my school! (because it's just beside sha house!) in the morning i force myself to continue sleeping and kept thinking what if i get into innova. i kept thinking! i wish i could stop those thoughts but they keep haunting me! it just makes me more afraid! hais pray hard i get into pjc!