dont know why somehow i still feel abit empty... like a piece missing? honestly i am rlly satisfied with my life now and thankful how carmen is always there for me, i mean now i am actually quite happy with my life and i rlly like my company of friends. but sometimes i just feel abit empty (but not as much as last time cos now i just keep myself busy and be around with people) like i just uncontrollably feel sad when i think of yj... or see him. i just thought of alot of stuff and that makes me sad. he think i am on my road to recovery so he doesnt want to appear, but is that really that case? am i really recoving? or am i just avoiding it? 

i always see couples around me whenever i go shopping alone. it just makes me sad cos it feels like we could have had it all but things just had to end. i wish i had a shoulder to lie on, i wish i had a hand to hold to. 

i wish that we will be okay.