i rlly hate feeling like this... and i am not even supposed to. it just hurts how i used to know everything abt u and now i only know when i heard ppl talking abt it esp when someone asked "is he okay?" and i dont even know what happened. i am not in any position to know anything now and i guess thats what hurts the most; that someone i used to know so much becomes someone so distant and out of reach. 

guess i shld just get my shit tgt and stop bothering ppl with my problems ugh 

fak la i rlly rlly miss u ): i wna go jj concert with you so badly sigh ): i rmb i was so excited when u said next time got concert we can go tgt u dont mind going (smth along that line) when i said i went alone two years back. i was like anticipating for the next jj concert that we can go tgt but in the end haha shit happens i guess i should just suck it up and start acknowledging the fact that i ultimately dont deserve anyone ugh fuck this shit ):