guess i'm still weak afterall. whats left of me? i dont even know anymore. i still check out on ur life sometimes to make sure are doing well and happy. sigh no matter what i still hope u are happy. even tho its not with me. but why do i feel so so so sad... it sucks how i miss you so much but i can't talk to you. i guess i just have to get used to this!!!!

but i guess im getting better now? like i wont be so damn sad for a long time tho sometimes many times most of the times everytime i still think of him. i mean its still better tho. at least i look less affected la aiya sian. just gna keep myself damn occupied so theres no space for these thoughts.