when will i ever learn to control my emotions well? i am rlly afraid. i dont even have the motivation or push to make myself study. everyday is just passing by like that. i just continue to let my emotions control everyday. and that sucks. i am so afraid i gna screw my mye and As up altogether. i dont understand this. i dont get that. the more i study the more i realize how much i dont know. and it is honestly making me panic. and making me feel like giving up on EVERYTHING. fuck this shit. i dont know how much i can take anymore. i swear periods suck. and its making me pissed off at everything. i didnt have enough sleep today. i missed two fucking buses in the morning. i didnt manage to get my notes printed. i rejected wk they all for lan to do my econs hw. and now i am here feeling as shitty as before because i just dont know how to do my hw, and it just tells me how much more i NEED TO STUDY, and how little time I HAVE. this is getting really hard. i rlly wish you were here. but oh well. u wont even give a fuck.