sigh sometimes i feel being friends with you is so presurizing (or am i just easily affected by u?) like how u can always find fault with me and just scold me for no apparant reason. its like u just dislike my existence? when i nvr even do anything wrong, and i still treated u so well. i dont know man... and its even more scary when i see how u dislike and badmouth carmen... like if u can do this to her you can also do this to me someday right. i dk la, i hate being so easily affected by u but i just dont get why recently u start to keep finding fault in me and scold me??? wtf man idk whats wrong la. i fking hate this feeling because it keeps making me doubt myself as a person; like i am lacking in sth or my character is like shit