starting to like work a little more cos im learning more new things and becoming clearer of how everything works! but what i rlly rlly dislike are my workmates sigh ): i mean its fine that everyone is busy working and thry seem hostile but what i fucking hate is when we are sent to eat lunch in groups and they just talk amongst themselves! im just like left alone there wondering what to omg.... whats worst is that some just talk in their own language! i cant even listen or try to blend in a little. perhaps cos im new, so people dont know me and its natural for them to stick to people thry are familiar with. i just hope this isnt whats gonna happen in the long term la, or else i will continue feeling like shit every time we hve lunch agh. sigh is this the adult life that i am going to have in a few years time? right now im just gettigg more and more afraid of the arrival ):

somehow i wish u were here... havent been hearing from u ever since u enlisted, i wonder hows things going inside sigh, but not like i have the rights to ask, cos it'll be weird if i do so :/ just hope u are doing well in there!