sy asked me if i wna go uss with him omg... the first time he asked i just laughed and scolded him cos he was disturbing me with the pinoy guy who said would treat me to uss. thn sy asked again, "so u wanna go uss with me? this time is real" , idk why i just felt quite weird like cos he dont go out with girls one and im like the only girl?? im afraid he like me actly, and im pretty sure i dont feel the same... sigh i just feel so confused and weird idk why? like it feels like if one day i gonna end up alone its gonna be my own fault cos i dont seem to have feelings for any guy who is interested in me, which is currently happening now... don has been texting me alot too recently, but i realize im just replying and talking to him as a friend and nothing more, and i hope he doesnt like me in that way.

sigh i just feel even more afraid now. what if i can never ever find someone i like that much again?