sometimes when he liked a video i shared, or a photo i posted, i can't help but still feel really bad. i haven't been seeing him after the day he stopped talking to me, in fact, not at all. i went back to work today and i didn't see him as well. i have no idea how he is now, but i also know i shouldn't be thinking about this. but i just feel bad. after all, he invested a lot of effort, time and money in me, and that's the main reason why i feel so bad. and he will even starve because of me.... i hope he isn't doing this anymore and at least recover a little.