felt so alone during recess today. is it me or everyone secretly dislikes me? i really dont want to think so much but then... haisss. wanted to go shaokang house today tgt with nichole they all.. but knowing jj they all will be there i didnt ask. then nichole called me to join, telling me jj they all didnt come. so i went. had fun. jieyu and me is like so different from last time le, i dont know why but she treats me very coldddd. i wish me and her could be like last time, playing like mad, joking around. hahaha... everything is different now.

played cards at sk house. then jj came. i was like 'whaaaat?!' forget itttt. we didnt talk. he put 5cents as bet. then nichole said, 'just now rachel also put 5cents as bet' then he immediatly said orh then i dont use 5cents alr. what the heck? okay i dont really bother alrdy! i mean seriously. i really dont care about him alr. it wont affect me anyway!!

i am really afraid that more and more people will start to dislike me. like tingwei, boonkang, zongyi etc... i dont want this. really