hais. koksiong didnt accept my follow request at twitter. why do i still feel sad? i chose not to like him. i dont want him to end up like zh. yes, i like zh and him. but i decided not to let myself sink deeper. i miss zhenhao still, but he dont care bout, at alll. sometimes i feel like the most worthless person in the world. sigh? jieming's bday party tml, i'll be seeing him. half excited half afraid? idk.. but i guess i dont really care le, slowly i wont. we are like not contacting each other! And now I know why I'm so sad when he unfollowed me, because it clearly reminds me of how Jiajun treated me! im always having thoughts which i dont tell anyone. firstly, i think those are temporary thoughts, i dont want these thoughts to define who i am. secondly, (which is most importantly), who actually bothers?

jiajun actually scolded me dog with boonkang they all! fuck. i hate the you now. in the past, will you even talk to me in this manner? no! when they were talking durains are nice and i chup in and said, 'eee durian nice meh? i hate it the most!' and guess whats his fcking reply? 'no one asked fr your opinion'. i was like urgh fine!!! then super angry and disappointed. he really changed. i hate it. i hate it.