was talking to derrick about last year.. and suddenly i felt regretful. i knew charmaine and co., and joined them because they are close to zh. and becos of this i neglected my old friends (jiajun). i changed into a completely different person (is this is just me?). im regretful for neglecting him.  im regretful for neglecting all my old friends for those new friends. when all those shits happened, first ones to leave was the new ones. jiajun didnt leave straight after. i know. he gave up on me because im hopeless alr. im sorry jiajun. im sorry. i disppointed you over and over again.

Now both of us have our own lives now, I'll continue with mine and he will continue with his. Sometimes we can just be sitting near each other in the canteen acting like we were nvr part of each others' lives. it's saddening. but what to do? this is life.