leonard talked to me today. he went out with me today because he wanted to talk to me. he told me to be myself. thn a lot lor. sigh. he said when i was sec 1, i was happy. i was myself. now, i try to be like someone else. i am not myself. he wanted me to be myself. i keep on following people's opinions and agree. he spoke so much to me and i realised, oh ya. yes, i am like that. and really, i didn't want it. so i should change it. not because he want me to, but i want to. i dont know if i can, i cant promise. but i promise i'd try. how should i start then? i am afraid i cant be myslef, i really am. haix.

last night, i tweeted,
'I feel that I'm a jinx. Everytime when I'm around, bad things are bound to happen.'
jj tweeted me, '@RTJX dont think too much!! no such things!! ^^'
'@C_JiaJun why not? It's like.. aiya. Anyway thanks :)'
'@RTJX are we still good friends?'
'@C_JiaJun i dont know.. i hope we are.'
he havent reply, yet(?). i dont know if he saw and dc or he didnt see it, cos had new tweets after that. haix.. you know how much i wish to be good friends with you again? i still carry hopes. i dont wanna lose hope. please, prove to me there is still hope...