haix. all of them going ecp tml. and im not invited. guess i'm just a person who is being forgotten and blended in the dark. damn, i dont wanna be sensitive but this feeling just keeps on haunting me. i wish i wont care too. they will be having so much fun and i'm rotting @ home. this isnt the sad part la..sad part is that when they go out they dont even thought of asking me! they also dont bother asking me go! so i shldnt be so shameless to go ask right! i thought i was in that group, guess im wrong, totally wrong. i shldnt try so hard, cos i know it's pointless. no one cares. i dont like this feeling; being left out, loneliness etc. like what i said, i shld be alone, cos no one really bother if im around or not... i wished i had friends who would stay! i wished people were more sensitive to my feelings. i am not exactly surpirsed thou, cos things were all along this way. isnt it? i just hate this feeling...

i nvr meant anything to anyone.