sigh. sometimes i cant help but just feel.. invisible to everyone? like, hz only find me when she needs me.. my kitchen. thn it's like no one cares bout me. ahhh. forget it. told myself not to think so much.
bully free act today. i really dislike norman. disgusting freak. he asked me 'you dont like me issit' thn i was like nodding my head. thn keep whywhywhy. zzz. hais. damn annoying also. know i dislike him alr still like talk to me etc. part of the act , his speech was 'and this beautiful lady whom captured my heart ever since i met her' he keep on NG sia wtf! others still can leh. this keep repeat repeat. argh. 
they went for cambodia outing tday.. bbq. sigh reminded me of the past agn. like when the grp of cambodia ppl vvery close tht time was the time me tried to blend in with zh they all.. sian why did i do that?! i still miss the past so much... guess i done a good jobing on stop being so obsessed over zh.. i still like him thou, just feel that there's no need to show out. and i promised myself not to appear in front of him after i knew he blocked me on twitter.. i cant break this promise right..hais. whenever i'm afraid, like in a dark place or scary place, i will think of him to distract my thoughts. it has always been this way. nvr changed. maybe a period of time not, but in the end still..
feelings that come back are feelings that never faded away.

take care.