jiajun read this blog & told me he'll eat strictly pancakes with me after prelims 2. he also said he's always here for me but he have other friends too. 

fact is, i dont want to seem as a burden or a person he has to put effort in because i put effort in him. i dont. dont make it as if it's like a task, a must to do so, to reciprocate. because he owe me one for that book i made for him. so he's 'paying back' to me. that's just...unreal. idk why but...yea :( sometimes i hope people treat me well because they really want to and they really care about me. i wish i had a real friend by my side, a friend i can call mine. i know this sounds selfish but who doesnt wants one? and it's like all of my friends have at least a friend they can call theirs, what about me?

sigh miss zh so much. i wish,.i wish me & him can eat strictly pancakes tgt. hahaha but that's just a wish. i guess..he's progressing great now in poly. maybe he'd alrdy forgotten me. 

sad, really.