i dont know what i am feeling. every day passes i just feel more and more dead. i start to get very very easily annoyed by everything. whenever i hear people laugh, it feels like they are laughing at how funny i am as a joke, as a loser.... i feel like the whole world is laughing at me fml


tbh i am really thankful for carmen and zw for always being there and listening to me... but my mood is just so bad i couldnt show i am thankful for them and still tried pushing them away... everyone around me is worried abt me and i still continue to keep everything to myslef and not take care of my health... i feel so bad and undeserving...