i honestly cant get you. the reason why we decided not to say anything is because we know u are alr v sad and why would we wna make things worse by telling you...? and you are angry at us for not telling you... we just just genuinely concerned man. sigh care for you also wrong...

why every single day just gets worse... nth is going well... yj's matter is alr making me feel so damn shit and all these just had to come in and add on to it. 

i realize i am always thinking for others, wanting the best for them, be there when they need someone, genuienly caring for them and give them the best i have

who will then do the same for me..? everything just keeps adding up to the agony. i dont know how much more i can take before i just snap

not sucidal, but sometimes i just wish i can kena some accident and be unconcious so i can stop thinking.