不存在的情人
詞Lyricist：吳青峰
曲Composer：林俊傑

以為能夠看見陽光 才想起你早已離開
時間忽然全故障 心永遠在漆黑的晚上
 還沒一起去的地方 還沒實現過的夢想
只能暫時先遺忘

照片裡你的臉龐 笑容停在我眼眶
美好轉眼變了樣 像是底片見了光 變一片空白

不想更新你的近況 不想刪除你的模樣
假裝有人取代 你每天在我身旁
不願意被誰看穿 只剩我一個人的孤單
若誰問起你來 我會說 那又怎樣

想像和你吃晚餐 想像和你等天亮
故事就像標本一樣 眼前是美麗的假象 卻已經死亡

自己編造你的近況 自己描繪你的模樣
假裝還是一樣 你每天在我身旁
不願意被誰看穿 只剩我一個人的害怕
若誰問起你來 我會說 一如往常

沒人理解的武裝 沒人懷疑的堅強

不想面對我的癡狂 不想正視我的荒唐
假裝沒受過傷 所有痛一個人承擔
不願意自己揭穿 這是我對自己的懲罰
不存在的情人 就不會 離開我身旁

This is clearly shows how i feel and i am when i was obsessed towards zh! this songs is saying about a person who is living in his own world. constantly finding back his memories imagining that his gf is still by his side, but actually no! in this mv he is like laughing at himself, talking to himself cos this song is actually a very lonely song. he is living alone by himself but in living at his own world.. imagining that his gf is still by his side! ok lah maybe im not rlly like this cos me and zh wasnt an item before but it's quite similar to my actions.. sigh! im actually quite happy for myself now cos im not as obsessed anymore! but who can see it? who cares?! jj dont like me to be obsessed and now i changed! and he is gone! far away! i just realised in the past when he said i changed cos i became super obsessed with zh. but i just realised actually i did not change! that was the real me! from the start i am always very obsessed! it was only that i didnt show out. only until i got chances to get close to him thn my real self surface! but now i really changed! it does not matter anymore! guess how i realise these? i read my own old posts! i nvr thought reading old blog posts can make me learn so much about myself! because when you blog out your feelings, you will feel better. it's like having a conversation with yourself. reading old posts make me understand myself more and learn mistakes! jiajun i really hope you will see that i changed! i'm not the old rachel anymore! im not as obsessed anymore! you know sometimes i regret telling you how i feel, how regretful i am? cos you dont even care! this is so disappointing! guess you're better off with ur life now!