times like this i just feel useless and unsignificant! the feeling of having no one who cares for you, no one will even think of you, no one will care of your feelings! i really hate it. i feel so invisible and useless. i'm like a dark shadow blended in the dark..no one will notice, no one will care. i'm tired of making initiatives. i'm always the one doing this and no one seem to appreciate. if they appreciate i wont mind making initiative la...but the fact is they dont! that's what makes me feel useless and tired. yeah i've been trying so hard on people like huizhen? i treated her so good but she just dont care about me! she only find me when she needs me! i hate it! and i also thought i meant something to xueqi but actually not really! sometimes she just dont care! maybe i'm just too sensitive?! but i really dont wanna feel this way! there must be a reason! maybe i'm just giving in too much and receive very little so i feel this way! i shall be by myself then! i swear im not going make initatives to people who dont care! they will initiate if they care.