last post, i mentioned i wasn't the only one who was left out in the group. xq too, was being left out. but, how is she left out? yep, she isn't that close to tingli they all so they might forget to include her in their plans. but she have jiajun and zongyi! the one who is alone is ultimately me! who can i turn to? how can she say she feel alone when she have her friends? it's me who is lonely... i never wanted to sound pathetic, so i kept all these to myself the whole time. who will even care anyway!how many times i asked xq out and how many times i get rejected..fuck this..i am never gonna put in effort anymore. everyone just takes me for granted.

and yea i'm now closer to wendy they are than i'm with them... if one day i'm really in wendy's clique it will not be surprising! at least they see me as a human in the group...

srsly everyday is so tiring. after sch, go imm for adjustments. i hate how tingli says 'you live so near complain so much for what!'. not like i'm rushing home to rest.