I promised myself. I'll give up on zh if he don't take any action after Os. Os are nearing. Os are ending as well. Yes surely I want Os to be over and done with ASAP. But part of me actually hope that it won't end so soon. Simply because when Os end, it's also time to put an end to my obsession towards zh. I can't bear to do so. What if we are really possible? What if I just need to put in a little more effort? What if he just have not seen the good side of me yet? What if. What if.